I am back to share with you again! Motherhood took over. I will tell you more about that journey another time. Below I will share some quite private feelings and thoughts. I will let myself be vulnerable in this way and maybe some of you will recognise yourself in my story?
Tonight I’m having one of those sleepless nights. My mind is on overload. Not sure how I got reminded of this memory, but I felt like sharing it.
When I was a teenager I felt like an ugly duckling. Not so strange after growing up in a small Swedish city, looking very different from my peers as I was adoped from South Korea. As I grew older I learnt how to appreciate and love myself more.
Alongside looking different I also felt like ‘an ugly duckling on the inside’. I couldn’t get myself to ‘fit in’. After a few years in London I started finding more and more of people that seemed to be from the same planet/species as me. We were able to understand each other.
My intention is to continue being ‘me’, going even deeper within, travelling the world and explore all the gifts this planet has to offer me. Continue learning ancient knowledge and mixing it with new energies/ research/ techniques.
While I continue learning I will keep enjoying sharing and passing on these powerful truths/ practises to whoever is open minded enough to look past their fears/ ego/ mind/ judgment.
Bit by bit I realised the illusion I’d been living in, jumped into a different illusion, ‘spiritual snobbery’ as one of my friends calls it. I had to experience that too, before somewhat stepping out of ‘the matrix’.
Here I am experiencing it all, allowing myself to accept/ feel/ see/ express all of me and my world. In one way I feel re-born. Still finding my feet in this new reality I’ve woken up in. It’s a bit scary, although exciting! A whole new canvas to paint on.
This time around I feel determined, strong, get gentle, calm and vulnerable. As if my inner feminine and masculine have been balanced. I feel deeply rooted in my feminine energy. I have arrived!
I feel like I don’t have to go to war to get what’s mine or to protect myself. I can dance and just be who I am and everything else will fall in place.
~ Maria Love Yoo